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When I started this blog at the request of Mistress Trecia, I never knew that I would fill it so prolifically and that so much of my history, pain, and devotion would come spilling out onto the page all at once.  It’s been an especially cathartic experience for me as my D/s experiences are woven into a really horrible time in my life which sometimes makes my feelings and motives unclear even to myself.  I’m also reawakening a part of myself that I’ve tried to hard to keep dormant which is causing me great joy but also making me question everything else in my life as who I am now is the direct result of that batch of decisions I made 9 years ago.

With that said, I am loving having such a great outlet to write after a long dry spell.  (My previous personal blog halted abruptly in April 2006 without any further update.) 

This week, Mistress Trecia honored me in her podcast, first mentioning my work on her MySpace page and how much she enjoys it, but then also for naming me Blog of the Week and broadcasting my URL so her listeners could come find me. 

I was also especially honored with another incredibly special reward late last week - Mistress allowed me to watch her on webcam and listen to her record some audio content for her site.  I’m a former Photographer and was always amazed at how some people just can’t be captured in still pictures.  After watching Mistress for just a brief period of time, it was clear that her beauty and grace is not given justice in still life.  I spent most of the time I was allowed to watch captivated by her smile, something that starts in the traditional place but ends up lighting up her entire face and making her eyes sparkle so brightly. 

It’s enough to completely cement my desire to make Mistress happy, just for the reward of seeing her radiant smile shining down on me.