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Over the past few days, I’ve been discussing my inability to stop touching myself despite the fact that I’m climbing the walls during this latest round of teasing and denial from Mistress Trecia.  She has been gently pushing my limits further and further since we first met, but this week has been even more intense and has left me feeling incredibly horny all the time.

As usual, Mistress found a way to exploit a particular weakness to her erotic advantage.

My instructions last night were simple - using the rope from my goody bag, tie up my cock and balls, listen to Mistress’s audio files on my MP3, and no touching .   Since touching is all I seem to be able to do when I’m alone, that was the kicker of the assignment.

Immediately after my cock was tied, I started thinking about putting on some cuffs or using rope to secure my hands behind my back.  While it was because I was jonesing for being bound, I also figured this assignment would be tough and that would be a nice crutch.  I quickly decided that was not in keeping of the spirit of the assignment and put the cuffs away.  (I haven’t worn them in a long time, but DAMN did it feel good to have the leather around my wrists again.  There’s something about being cuffed and restrained that just lights a fire in my very core, like stoking the engine on a coal-fired ship.)

Once in my bedroom, I got naked, got into bed, and lay there exposed and listening to Mistress’s amazing voice whispering erotic stories into my ear.  It was right then that something occurred to me.  I hadn’t asked how long I was supposed to stay in this position!  In normal edge play, it’s easy enough - once you hit the edge, you’re done.

While I could have taken the easy way out, I decided to set a very specific and reasonable goal for myself.  I would listen to every one of Mistress’s audio files (about an hour’s worth) before I would allow myself to stop.

With in about 5 minutes, my cock was throbbing and ready to burst and I had to clench the sheets on either side of me to keep from stroking myself.  Laying in the dark acted like a deprivation chamber as the only thing I could sense in the room was my bound cock and the sultry sounds of Mistress’s voice.  By the 15 minute mark, precum was oozing out of my still-untouched cock and I was clenching my teeth trying to resist the urge to touch.

I have no idea how I made it through all the audio files.  The last half of the assignment is a complete blur as I lay shaking on the bed trying to muster the willpower to not touch.  When the last audio file finished, I immediately stripped off the rope, dressed myself, and listened to This Week In Tech (hoping guys talking about computers would be enough of a buzz kill to take me off the edge).  Fortunately, the combination of the strain of the assignment, the late hour, and my jet lagging knocked me out into a fit sleep.

Today I had the pleasure of doing some shopping for Mistress.  There are a few pieces of dungeon furniture that she’s wanted, so I decided to construct them then do the delivery in person during our visit in late March.  I picked up all the lumber and most of the hardware today since I’ll have all day Monday to build while I’m home alone.  (My wife doesn’t get the day off.)  From looking at the plans (taken from the Better Built Bondage Book), it looks like the two biggest items are only a 1 - 2 day project including finishing, so I’ve got plenty of time to finish the projects before the trip.

I’m also working on creating a custom smotherbox for Mistress since she loves both body worship and breath play, something which just begs for that type of contraption.  I’m also going to rig it with a lock since I know how much Mistress loves inescapable bondage.  The final products are going to be a surprise, but I promise to post pictures after the presentation to Mistress.  (Actually, with her permission, I’d love to present a Flickr set of  the presentation.)