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Mistress had a doozy of an assignment for me last night.  I spent yesterday working with Mistress Trecia on a picture gallery update, so looking at her sexy "members only" pictures all day left me all hot and bothered.  Since I admitted I was struggling with the non-stroking rule, Mistress crafted my assignment specifically to torment my excited state.

First, since I was guilty of getting behind on Mistress’s podcasts, I was to put on my chastity cage and get caught up on my listening.  Then, I was to insert the Aneros and use it with no touching  while I listed to her "Freakout" audio twice.  Once that was done, I was allowed to stroke myself to sleep, but only using two fingers.

Listening to Mistress’s voice always gets me going, so doing that with the cage on when I was already horny just made me ache that much more.  The Aneros just added more fuel to that fire, basically stroking me from the inside and making me squirm, my cock bobbing in the air begging for a touch.  Once I was back in bed and ready to sleep, I tried stroking with two fingers to get a little relief, but that was just an exercise in frustration.  I couldn’t get enough stimulation to do anything other than just wish for a real touch.

The next day, Mistress had given me an additional assignment.  While I was awake, I was to give myself 34 strokes at 15 past on every odd hour (11:15, 1:15, etc.)  That, too, was just another way for me to become more achy and frustrated, the small number of strokes meaning that I would just get such a light tease that I never got enough to satisfy my need to be touched.

With all this going on, I hardly expected a breakthrough in my marriage by any means.  However, my wife asked me out of the blue to talk about some of the sexuality issues that I’ve been going through.  We both opened up quite a bit with each other.  She finally admitted that she really is a sub, albeit a light one.  (She likes men to take charge, but not necessarily tie her up.)  I told her about my need for erotic servitude and explained subspace and why I need to go there.  I also told her I’m pretty sure this has always  been a part of my sexuality and that I think that finally figuring out how much of myself is wrapped up in this has been the reason I’ve started to regain my personal strength.

We both came to realize that, while we mesh will in all other areas, our sexual desires are both the same - we want to be subs.  We don’t know quite how to deal with that yet, but I’m hoping that our new, open communication can let us start to figure it out.  I stopped just short today of talking about Mistress, but I feel the door is open and that I’m even closer to bringing my two favorite women together.