Failed
I’m tweaking the posting date on this article. I had it written in time, but my net connection has been down so I couldn’t actually post it until now.
Well, I finally had to report my first failure to Mistress Trecia. I also had to pay the price…
Even before I started, I knew Thursday’s assignment was going to be tough. I was to put clips on my nipples (another toy from the goodie bag) then stroke to the new "stroke time" audio. Then , I was to stroke to the same audio again, but using toothpaste for lube. The combination of pain and forced stroking cadence was going to be trouble.
I made it through the first round without any issues, but during the second run through clip I hit the edge way to fast and started to struggle long before the pace started climbing. It was like watching a train wreck - I knew I was going to fail, I knew I wasn’t going to be able to stop this time, but I followed that damned metronome right over the cliff.
As the cum surged forward and the orgasm washed over me, I felt a deep and horrible shame. I knew I had failed and that I would need to communicate that to Mistress.
I also had a new issue to deal with - should I stop or continue with the assignment? I decided that the assignment was the important thing and continued to stroke, my nerves on fire, as I tried to finish despite my spillage. It turned out I was less than 30 seconds away from the end which just added fuel to my shame.
Before I even cleaned up, I rinsed my hands and jumped on IM, telling Mistress what had happened and apologizing profusely. Mistress told me that she wasn’t mad and that we were pushing my limits. At one point, she actually addressed me with my real name so I’d understand that she wasn’t mad or disappointed.
She did tell me that I was wrong to keep going, however. The most important thing, I know now, is to not cum without permission. Failing an assignment should me be stopping the exercise rather than continue and cum. (This is the first time in my submission to Mistress Trecia where my inexperience with tease and denial has come to haunt me. When she told me that, my thought was "duh - that makes perfect sense" and I felt even more stupid than I already did.)
Since I did cum without permission, Mistress came up with a fitting punishment - in the following 24 hours, I had to cum 8 times. My first thought was, "oh, shit". My next thought was, "I need to get started right away".
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