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If you’ve been reading over the last couple of weeks, you know that my wife and I are having issues, mainly because my need for servitude has completely taken over my sexuality and it’s affecting our relationship.

Mistress Trecia recommended a book called "Different Loving" which is full of research and interviews about what D/s is and what makes those of us who subscribe to it tick.  I picked the book up this weekend and started reading today.

I can’t believe how much the book is already speaking to me.

Just in the introduction, I was floored by what I read.  This is from page 8:

By adulthood, most D&Sers discover that the need can no longer be repressed. Although some of our interviewees found sympathetic partners while young or discovered their mates were willing to experiment with D&S, D&Sers often marry unsympathetic (and unsuspecting) partners and later develop significant martial problems. Many D&Sers maintain a lonely and secret sexual identity.

Holy crap!  That’s exactly  what I’m going through right now!  The book also describes how many people have their first D/s thoughts and fantasies when they are extremely young (mine started when I was around 8 years old) and how some unsuccessfully try to suppress their urges only to have them come back stronger than ever (also like me).

If nothing else, I think this book will help me show my wife that I’m not alone in my suffering and that this isn’t akin to a husband pouting about not getting a blowjob.  My submissiveness is a big part of who I am and is the core of my sexuality.  Getting my wife to fully understand this will go a long way to her accepting me for what I am.

I’ll file a full report once I finish the book.  Forty pages in, though, I must say I’m just completely blown away.

On Friday night, Mistress Trecia gave me an assignment to do some more experimenting with the ErosTek.  This time, I used the "ErosLink" cable to hook the unit up to my laptop which opened up an entire new world of options.

First, the software gives you complete control of the ErosTek unit.  This means that you can tweak all of the settings like you would a TENS or PES unit, something that’s not possible from the main controls.  It also lets you download stim routines from the Internet and load them for your own use.

I did a little Googling and came across the e-stim forum SmartStim.com.  They had tons of great information on electrical play general and also had an entire forum dedicate to sharing your ErosTek routines.

Jackpot!

I loaded up a bunch of the most promising looking ones and set up the unit on the bed, choosing a set of conductive elastic bands for my cock and balls and a conductive anal probe.  One thing I discovered after playing with Mistress during my visit is that while the ErosTek is extremely cool, I didn’t really get the best accessories with it.

Based on my experimentation thus far, it seems that the idea setup is to have a bi-polar anal electrode and another set for the cock and balls.  This lets you put these two sensitive areas on two separate power channels meaning that you can vary the routine for both (having a strong, slow pulse for your ass while having a light, stroking sensation in your cock, for instance) and can have better control over the level of power output.  (The ass is less sensitive than the cock, so you can turn up the gain to get stronger sensations.  If you had both on the same channel, you’d have to back off the power to accommodate the more sensitive areas.)

One of the new programs I found has a great deal of potential,. something simply called "Edge".  The program makes use of both channels, with a strong vibration in the anal electrodes and a variety of changing strengths and sensations in the cock.  Then, the routine sends a few extremely strong, sharp jolts of power before ramping down and starting all over again.  The effect was extremely teasing as I could feel myself getting aroused only to have to start over after the jolts disrupted my arousal.  The logical part of my brain says I should delete this one before Mistress gets her hands on it!

Sunday, Mistress told me to try out another feature.  The ErosTek has the ability to pick up audio files either via the included microphone or from an external source like a computer or MP3 player.  Mistress said to listen to two of her recorded audios while shocking myself with them at the same time.  Unfortunately, I lacked a necessary cord to try this, but found one at Radio Shack today.  I’ll give this a go tonight.

I can’t recommend the ErosTek highly enough to anyone who enjoys electrical play.  While the unit is pricey, the functionality makes it worth every penny especially  if you have thing for hands-free play (setting the "knobs" and letting the machine do its thing). 

I haven’t yet found the perfect "sweet spot" on the ErosTek just yet.  I’m ordering a couple more accessories to hopefully better use the device to its full potential.  I’ll post my results in about a week.

Mistress Trecia updated her site and my pics and the video of my piercing are now available!

The pics turned out great (there’s one of me stroking with her foot on my balls and another of me attached to the ErosTek leaking drippy globs of pre-cum, among others) and I love  the video of my piercing.  (You can’t see any blood at all, but you can hear the amazing "pop" sound as the needle goes shooting out of my urethra!  You can also hear Mistress and Jamie [our piercer] discussing the procedure.)

You do have to be a member of the Parlor to see them, so sign up today!