sub-burbs

I’m back from my gaming convention and feeling a little restless.  MJ and I have passed the critical 12-week mark in Her pregnancy meaning that we’re nearly out of the woods for any issues.  This is the farthest we’ve ever made it and the thought of finally being parents is exciting for both of us.

Unfortunately, MJ is having a hard time with the pregnancy in general including nausea and exhaustion, so our D/s life has almost completely vanished.  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t disappointed, but I completely understand not feeling sexy.  Still - being so close to subbie bliss and now going back to a regular marriage for the time being has been frustrating.

I know that makes me sound completely selfish and I am in some ways.  I would never, however,  trade this baby for anything and the success MJ and I had in our marriage because of D/s is helping us through these times.  Like I said - I understand the situation and (short of me feeling a little sorry for myself on the D/s front) things are actually going really well.

Plus, I figure I waited 37 years to finally be true to myself.  Another few months is just a drop in the bucket.  I plan to use the time to continue getting into shape so that once we to head back to The Club, MJ can fully show me off on that lace-down table we’ve both been fantasizing about.

In the meantime, I’m planning to talk to MJ about perhaps letting me work on my milking machine so I can at least submerse myself somewhat into D/s with the added bonus of having a new toy once we’re back to playing again.

For the blog, I am still working on a couple of articles and am also trying to find things to write about in this vacuum of ongoing personal experience.

More to follow soon - I just wanted to drop a quick update so you didn’t think I had abandoned the blog!