Starting a FemDom marriage in the Vanilla Kingdom

Weighty Matters

A couple of weeks ago, MJ put me back on my diet and exercise program.  My weigh in on Sunday showed I lost 5 pounds during my first week!  If I keep up at this rate, I’ll be down to my target weight by the end of year.

I posted before about the fact that I’m really comfortable at my current size (which, as of Sunday, was 308 pounds) and don’t have any negative feelings about how I look.

With that said, I’ve been coming up with reasons why I should lose the weight and get fit.  It helps me to have positive things I can focus on when I’m doing something that really tests my will (like working across the street from Potbelly’s and Chipotle, for instance). 

Here’s what I have thus far:

SelfPortrait1990 MJ:  The picture to the right is how I looked when MJ met me.  This was taken 18 years ago shortly after I got out of boot camp.  (The Navy should know better than to leave horny, kinky guys alone in a photo lab full of portrait studio equipment!)  Although MJ is far too classy to ever say it, she has hinted that she would love for me to be physically sexy again.  If I really am dedicated to serving my Mistress, shouldn’t looking the part be a consideration?  (Not to mention the thrill of having someone you love look at you with that animal, physical lust in their eyes.)

Besides, if I looked even close to that again, I’d probably turn into a complete exhibitionist begging to be bound naked in crowed play spaces.  (I have this fantasy about being hooded or blindfolded in a crowed room, then led to a spot and told to strip without knowing how many of those people are still there.) 

lace1-tb MJ has also said that she would really love to show me off at The Club and, knowing her flair for the dramatic, I have a feeling that she would string me up in the middle of the room in a very dramatic (and exposing) manner if my form was more universally appealing.  (Some people really dig "bears", but I know that feeling isn’t universal.) 

One thing MJ has specifically mentioned is tying me down to their awesome lacing table and doing all sorts of wonderfully horrible things to me.  I have a feeling that being at MJ’s mercy while she was trying to draw a crowd would be a very interesting experience.

Health:  Now that I’m a parent, I want to stick around as long as possible especially since we started our family so late.  Getting in shape would be a great way to add years on to my life.  (My dad is really heavy and has tons of health issues that probably wouldn’t have been an issue if he had been in better shape.  I’d rather be working on it now rather than regretting not doing so when it is too late.)

Penis Size:  From what I’ve read, you gain an inch of length for every 30 pounds you lose.  This is especially true for guys who carry their weight low in the belly like I do.  That means a three-inch gain once I get down to my target weight!  (Don’t get me wrong - I’m not hung up on size at all.  I just love CBT and would love to give MJ a larger canvas to work with!)

Flexibility:  Being in shape means being more flexible which means more creative bondage options.  It also opens up all sorts of sex positions (especially ones where MJ can ride on top) and BDSM possibilities (like suspension bondage).  These are tough now because of my body shape, lack of flexibility, and weight.  (They have an awesome suspension winch at The Club that we have been assured could lift a Volkswagen, but neither MJ or I wanted to put it to the test.)

Style:  I love to "suit up".  Nothing makes me feel sexier than putting on nice clothes and strutting through a club or hotel lobby.  When you are as big as I am, really nice clothes come at a premium.  If I could buy off the rack at places like H&M (or, actually, just about every store at the mall), I could become a total clothes horse without spending a fortune.  This also goes for fetish wear - leather and latex are normally pricey, but in my size things like harnesses are nearly always custom order items.

Now all I have to do is make it happen!  I’ve been going to the gym every morning before work.  Right now, I’m easing back into things with power walking on the treadmill.  (I’ve been doing 2 miles a day at a pretty good pace.)  Once my legs are back into a little better shape, I plan on doing cardio 7 days a week and then doing weight training every other day.

As I keep shrinking, I’ll take pictures along the way and share them later this summer.  I know this won’t be an easy process, but with the motivation above and MJ’s encouragement I know I can do it this time. 

Of course, I do have to stop thinking about that lacing table when I’m mid-workout.  Erections are really hard to hide in gym shorts…

1 Comment so far

  1. Wendy Blackheart May 8th, 2008 7:05 pm

    Good luck! Weight loss is rough, but worth it. :) I’m trying to slim down myself. I do lots and lots of walking, since I’m out of work and don’t own a car.

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