Starting a FemDom marriage in the Vanilla Kingdom

Little Touches

Even though MJ and I have been reconnecting sexually, we still haven’t done any D/s scene play since just after we learned she was pregnant last year.

I’m not pushing MJ in any way and am being as completely low key as I can be.  I know she is slowly getting back into her Domme headspace and is also trying to figure out what type of D/s relationship she would be comfortable with, so the extra baggage of me hounding her for answers about where we stand as Mistress and sub would just make things harder for her (as well as being completely disrespectful). 

However, MJ has been doing little things that have been driving me wild and sending the subby part of my brain into a spin.

A couple of weeks ago, I was sitting on the floor playing with our daughter.  MJ came up behind me and started stroking my hair in the way that makes me completely melt.  It’s part puppy petting and part "there, there little boy" and just causes me to immediately feel that I’m totally under her power, both emotionally and physically.  The little chuckle I heard as I sighed deeply and laid my head against her thigh told me that this was a completely intentional gesture on her part.

Last week, I was stressing out because the baby was screaming up a storm and was standing in place in the family room bouncing up and down to try and comfort her.  Once she quieted down, I kept up my bouncing and cooing figuring that was the only thing settling her down.  MJ came up behind me, rubbed my shoulders for a moment, then slid one of her hands up, delicately following the curve of my neck and head and then gently but firmly grabbed a handful of my hair.  Completely against my will, I let out a little moan of joy.

I can’t tell you how much I love that MJ has this power over me.  She knows me so well that she can just do these tiny little gestures and push me into complete submissiveness.

While I long for the day when I can once again kneel naked at her feet or feel the impact of her favorite buffalo-hide flogger, these little things are just enough of a tease to let me know that MJ still gets me, still wants me as her sub, and still understands me better than anyone in the world.

1 Comment so far

  1. axe May 14th, 2008 11:19 pm

    What a great post.

    I imagine the little things are just as good as the big things in the long run.

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